So...

I guess I'm starting up this thing.

I need to vent my thoughts and for some reason publish them into the open space of the internet.
It's been a hectic year and it's a busy time of my life.
I still have a lot of aspirations all though right now my main objective is to get a job.

I would also like to find the love of my life, but I am picky and it has to be the right guy.
The head over heels, don't want to live without him kind of love. That's what I want.
If I can't have that I'm going to live alone for the rest of my life, doing the things I love.
But...I'd prefer not to.

I'm really deep down a girl just like anyone else. Even though I am restless and a bad girl sometimes, I still want what everyone else wants. A love to call my own. To some day get married and have kids, even though I've never really liked the whole concept of marriage, or been crazy about children.
But with the right guy, I can see that happening.

And I am aware of that I haven't been emotionally available with my boyfriends.
I've been "the guy" - the eternal heartbreaker but I'm done with that now.
I want to surrender to a great love.